Goodbye Sophomore Year

“As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn’t suppose to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time out."

As the end of the school year grows closer...actually it's practically here, i figure it's about time for me to blog about the entire experience of this year.

Let’s start from the very beginning. To be honest, I totally expected this year to be kick ass awesome but it really did not live up to my expectations…..in some ways it totally was a failure, in other ways it totally went above and beyond. It’s been such a roller coaster ride and no matter if I end up hating it or loving it, I can say that it was definitely was sooooo unpredictable. I rmbr walking thru the halls on the first day of school thinking damn I’m a sophie….no more freshmeat. That thrill lasted a day before all the drama caught up with me. And then I felt as crappy as a freshman did again.

Actually I have learned a lot from this year. I learned that sometimes I do have to open up my heart to experience true happiness even if it means getting hurt…I’ve learned that trust can only go so far bc eventually that person will betray that trust. I’ve learned that it’s better to just shut up and listen….i’ve learned that I can’t keep measuring my success according to other people’s standards. I’ve learned that it is okay to fail miserably at something once in a while as long as I’m willing to stand up and fight again. I’ve learned that to win a battle I have to have soldiers first, willpower second. I’ve learned that I can never judge a person based on their words especially when they are better at sweet talking than I am. I’ve learned that sweet talking doesn’t work. I’ve learned that love does really conquer all…though I still don’t know wat love is. I’ve learned that I am special and that there are ppl out there who do like me for who I am. I’ve learned so much, too much. I’ve gotten hurt so many times within the last 9 months but I have grown so much as a person. I don’t know if I’m a nicer person or not but I do know that I am more genuine and more real, both to myself and to the world.

The past school year has been amazing and I really couldn’t ask for anything more. I may have gotten hurt and I may have failed one too many time but from the ashes come the phoenix.

“There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past; there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."